One
of you will lie, he says, giving me advice the way big brothers are wont to
do—his favorite phrase—are
wont to—as in parents are wont to
worry when their little girl. . .
I’m not a little girl!
When their little girl goes out
with a man . .
A man? Joe’s . . .
A man 8 years older than she is, a
bearded man who shows up in leathers and a Harley. . .
A
Honda.
.
. . motorcycle to meet them.
He
was wearing a helmet.
But
he only brought one as reckless men
are wont to do.
I
have my own.
You
do? End of monologue. He’s staring at me, waiting for me to produce the
helmet, no doubt, which I can’t do since we’re in his car on our way to Mom and
Dad’s for Easter.
It’s at home, I say, in my dorm. I just didn’t have it that day.
Convenient
explanation, he says. And your boy
friend—emphasis on boy—is a man.
Of
course he’s right about that. I’d been
going out with boys until Joe came along. Joe, tall, blond, handsome, just a
hint of beard really. He keeps it trimmed.
My
brother starts again. One of you will lie.
That’s all I mean to say. One of you will lie.
I
wonder if I’m the liar. We’re almost there—two more stoplights. We never make
them both so I have a minute to decide: who will lie?
I can’t tell her, I say at the first
light. Omission isn’t really a lie.
Liars
are wont to say that, he says as the light changes.
The
second light is also red. I think he slowed down so we’d catch it. If I tell her, she’ll lie and say she’s so
happy—a lie. . . . Which makes me tear up because my mother would lie to
spare me, to make it a nice day for us all. If I lie, everybody will know I’m
lying, but it won’t ruin the day, at least not publicly.
We’re
there. I’m out of the car, walking towards Mom in her slim green dress,
smiling, arms out, noting my tights, the blousy tunic, the slight bulge.
Oh, Darlings, she says, meaning us both.
I’m so glad to see you. She looks at
me, the usual up and down—and . . . and . . .
I see you have something to tell us.
I
nod, and we both burst into tears, neither of us lying. My brother was wrong as
he is wont to be, but I see him nod and smile—glad to be wrong for once in his
life.
©
2013 Kathleen Coskran