And
we were—are—old in spite of her quick disclaimer and all those
sit-ups. We are old friends and know the other’s secrets, wishes, gifts, faults
and sins—the whole catastrophe—as Zorba said in another context.
We
were young enough to have danced like Zorba on the beach—our first holiday
alone,
without parents. We spread our blanket on the hard sand, the tide on its
way out, shed our cover-up and danced. Slowly at first, choosing the steps
carefully—she humming softly, then louder as I picked up the pace, both of us finger to thumb, bounding across the sand in imitation of a Mexican actor being
Greek, being free and passionate and young. I said young, but Zorba wasn’t
young. It was we who were young and caught up in passion, not youth. We learned better than Basil, the young awkward man, took it to heart, felt the passion.
And
then forgot it all in the tumult of marriage, babies, work, meetings—oh, god,
the meetings, going here, there. Forgot it all until now. Not young. We are old
friends, and if I say the word, she’ll stand slowly, but upright, raise her
arms, curve her arthritic finger to her thumb and start the song.
I’ll
start the dance, and she’ll join me. We’re not on the beach, but we can still
dance.
Oh, yes,
we still dance.
© 2013
Kathleen Coskran
wonderful!
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